I live in a NYC apartment which means I have many neighbors and paper thin walls. I’m actively aware of this anytime I’m singing (or trying to sleep). In the back of my mind, I’m thinking, “ug, I hope this warmup isn’t bothering anyone.” But in the front of my mind, I’m thinking, “ug, I hope no one is judging me.” This isn’t the best way to release a free sound and I’ve often wished that for a nanosecond I could forget about the other people who might be hearing me.
Cut to the beach house with my family. It is the opposite of sound proof. And there are people EVERYWHERE! And I have a lot of vocal work to do. So I not only have to sing while knowing people are going to overhear me – I’m related to those people which is so much worse than the upstairs neighbor, Nevin, who I occasionally run into while he’s walking his dog.
BREAKTHROUGH: This week I’m working on a song that is especially challenging and that I especially LOVE. And I’ve accepted the fact that my musician brothers will hear me AND that they will hear me sucking (I’m taking Lesly Kahn‘s advice – “dare to suck”). I actually find myself not caring about sounding bad and not thinking about the other people that can hear me through the floor boards. I’m only concentrating on the work. It’s so much more fun that way!
~ Kimberly Y.